I just have to be brutally honest and say that this has been one horrible year.
The upheaval for all of us of losing Ned has been rough. It just is an indescribable sorrow. On good days I look at the blue sky and puffy white clouds, hear a Dave Matthews song on the radio and he is right there with me helping me go forward.
Ron lost his brother one year ago as well. His brother who I never met, who was an addict and fell and hit his clouded head on the concrete ground in Clearwater, Florida.
Today it is rainy and cold and unforgiving.
Great Grandma is hanging on but is ready to leave this planet and join Ned, wherever he is. I think she is frustrated that her body won't quit. It is so hard to say goodbye to her.
I found out a week ago that I'm being laid off from my "new" job. It is devastating news in this economy. There are so many circumstances around this lay off that seem unfair. I have made a lot of friends and contacts. That is what will help me move on.
Politically and economically, these are challenging times for everyone and yet it is like the long, painful labor of something new being born. Sometimes I just wish it wasn't so hard. Relax your face, breathe and work with it.
