It's been a month since the party at the house and many people felt Ned was there watching us celebrate his life. I like to think that too and I really don't care if it is true or not, I just like to keep thinking that he is watching all of us and is feeling some kind of comfort in the spirit world that we are remembering him and struggling to go forward at the same time.
In the picture, Vicki and Ned are at my folks' home where the party was held. I don't know where they are going or where they have been, but they sure look beautiful! Vicki and I sat last week at the table behind where they are standing in the picture and told me about some of her dreams of Ned. She has such clarity in the midst of this tragedy. I really admire her and love her so much! She is pushing forward although I know it is so very difficult. Little Shaan pretty much demands her attention all the time. Her sister is there at pretty much every step with concrete support.
We have to keep on celebrating life and know that Ned will always be a part of every celebration with us, even if it is taking a moment to throw a football around with his son.
